Tril's Trail To Thin

[Tril]

Hello, everyone! I've been reading your forum and would like to say thanks for all of the information and the kind, respectful way you treat each other (not like SOME forums I've visited). I'd love to become an active member!

About me... late 40's, no med issues, no meds taken. Diet history is about 40 years of experience so I won't go into it. Let's just say, this isn't my first experience with Atkins or low carbing. My issue? I can lose weight on just about any plan. It's keeping it off that's been so elusive. The past year I have struggled (and STRUGGLED) to maintain a 50+# loss. I've "officially" (read: admitted) regained about 25 of it. NOT good. So... in light of my acceptance that I need to do something about it (NOW), I began induction yesterday.

Start wt 5/27/08 - 143.5 Day 1
Current wt - 142 Day 2
Height - 5' 4"
Female, 48
Goal - 120-something

It feels GOOD to be doing something other than worrying or being discouraged about my weight. I'm looking forward to getting back into my clothes (I had to buy new, bigger jeans twice!!!). I'm looking forward to feeling better about the way I look and about myself. What a vicious cycle regaining can be... eat too much, feel bad, eat more to feel better, feel worse, over and over and over again.... and it's so hard to stop once it gets going.

Tril

[Tril]

Almost had a heart attack this morning when I tried to log on and the server was down!!! Whew... glad it's back. lol

Just wanted to do a little update. After two days of induction I'm THRILLED to report that I'm down 3.5# to 140. I'm am SO looking forward to seeing 130-something again and soon.

Diet-wise, it's going good. Old habits are obviously still there. At least I don't feel like I'm struggling to learn new stuff... kinda like riding a bike. I haven't done that in a long time either, but I'm sure I remember how.

Only "issue" I'm having is that I'm reluctant to tell anyone what I'm doing. Why? Feeling like the response could be... here we go again. I think it's tied to my guilt/discouragement over regaining the weight yet AGAIN. I know, in my heart, that it doesn't make me a bad person, or less of a person. But my emotions and inner voice aren't as kind about it. The other night dh cut me a slice of bread at dinner (he did for everyone) and put it on my plate. OUCH. I just tucked it down under the rim of my plate and left it there. When he went to cut himself another slice, I offered him mine and said that I just didn't feel like eating it tonight. Surprisingly, it wasn't hard to NOT eat it. That felt good at least. I think he has noticed that my food choices have changed... he just hasn't said anything about it yet. I'm cooking to suit my needs anyway... it won't be until he wants something like baked beans or spaghetti that I'll have to say something. Oh well, cross that bridge when I get to it.

Today will be a good day. Today I will take care of me and my needs. Today I matter. Today I will be successful.

Practicing positive self talk,
Tril

Start wt 5/27/08 - 143.5 Day 1
Current wt - 140 Day 3

[Entwife]

Yay Tril you're doing great! I know how you feel about admitting that you're trying again. It almost kept me from posting here because I hate to admit that I let the weight creep back on, but it's ok because we're not giving up! And doesn't it feel good?
I wish you THE BEST at this lifestyle and congratulations on the quick results
Entwife

[Tril]

Thank you, Entwife! It meant a lot to me to sign in and see someone had left me a message in my thread... kinda reinforces that I'm not just talking to myself and there ARE other people who understand. Again, thanks.

Tril

[mneemnee]

Good luck Tril, it's very good you decided to come back now before you gained all the weight.
Everything's going to be just fine if you stick to the program.
Wishing you the best of luck.

[Tril]

Thanks... I agree... this is WAY better than starting completely over. I'm glad I came back to Atkins. I'd been doing South Beach since Nov of '04... and just couldn't get up the enthusiasm to go back to it. I know, though, that the habits I learned there kept me from gaining it ALL back.

Having a great day... makes me feel good.

Tril

[Tril]

Yesterday I posted and said I was SO looking forward to weighing 130-something soon... I was hoping today would be the day but I wasn't prepared for what the scale said this morning. I would have been thrilled to see 139.5... but instead it was 138!!!!!!!!!!! I had to get off, reset the scale to zero and get back on to believe it. For MONTHS I've struggled and starved hoping to see a "3". And now, here I am, just THREE SHORT DAYS into induction and I'm already here. Amazing. Just totally, freakin' amazing. That's 5.5# in 3 days.

In case you can't tell, I'm a little happy about that.

Plan for today... eat well, eat often, drink tons of water, go for a walk, and stay positive in my thoughts and actions.

Tril

[mneemnee]

Congratulations.
You're doing great. Best of luck in your journey

[Tril]

Thanks!!!

I just had a really good b'fast. I'm NOT a b'fast person, either. But since I started, I'm hungry in the morning. I had two eggs over easy, one slice of CA bacon, one stalk broccoli and 1/4 cup shredded cheddar melted/browned over everything.

Question... a protein only b'fast makes me nauseous and gaggy. The broccoli stopped that. Anyone else have this issue? It's only at b'fast... I can have just eggs or just chicken later in the day and not have this response. But if I were to eat two eggs for b'fast and nothing else, I wouldn't be able to finish the eggs w/o worrying about making myself physically sick. Maybe by morning my BS is too low... I dunno.

Start wt 5/27/08 - 143.5 Day 1
Current wt - 138 on Day 4

Tril

[Tril]

Didn't make it online yesterday... helped oldest son move. We started at 7 AM and I left their new place, after unloading the last truckfull at 12:03 AM!!! OMG, that was a long, long day... two full 24' truck loads. We did one load with 4 people... both of my sons, ds's gf and me. Then we lost youngest ds but gained the gf's brother (thank goodness!). As you can imagine, eating was a issue. Around noon the kids were all saying they wanted burgers for lunch and we needed more tape. So gf and I went to Wendy's and the dollar store. I don't go in dollar stores much... now I know why. CANDY. I couldn't believe the candy aisle there. ALL in those theatre boxes (love those). We bought $10 worth of candy and 3 rolls of tape. Gf ate a Chunky bar while we were driving home!! At Wendy's we got a ton of food... except for me. I got a side salad. Didn't know what else would be totally safe. I dumped the carrots and grape tomatoes and had a tiny amount of Ranch dressing. For protein I had three cheese sticks in my car... ate those thoughout the day. At 10:00 PM we stopped for gas on the way to unload the truck and I got a Diet Coke (totally buzzed me) and another cheese stick. Gas stations do not cater to Atkins followers. Jeesh.

When I got home at 12:35 I went right to bed. So yesterday didn't eat much. But you know what??? I never felt overly hungry. I drank a LOT of water and Crystal Light. It was weird. I kept thinking I should FEEL hungry or light headed, but I didn't. Even with all that physical labor I was fine. Guess I've hit the "high energy" stage.

Start wt 5/27/08 - 143.5 Day 1
Current wt - 137.5 after 5 days on Atkins

6 pounds in five days... SWEEEEEEEET!

Tril

[Tril]

Weight loss has stopped... not overly concerned. Just waiting it out at this point. I know it will continue IF I CONTINUE.

Knowing that hot summer days can't be far away, I went looking for carb counts for beer/wine (anticipating that at SOME point being armed with this knowledge will make my choices the best of the bad, ya know?). I found this webpage that I have bookmarked. Thought I would share: lowcarb4life (dot) sugarbane (dot) com (backslash) lowcarbalcohol. I can't post a link because the board thinks it's spam. So I removed the dots and backslashes, htpp:// at the beginning and the .htm at the end. Cut and paste the address into a new window, add that stuff back in and hit enter.

Not advocating the use of beer or wine, just sharing info.

Weekends are harder for me. I think it's because I eat three meals a day with family. Today, I only have one meal where I need to consider what other people will eat. This is going to be a CRAZY week for me, though. DS is graduating from HS on Sunday so I will have family coming to stay for the week, maybe tomorrow, plus a family dinner one night... and we have a wedding to go to on Sat which DS is IN. With all of the Senior stuff and the wedding stuff and finals this week... ... and a healthy (UNhealthy??) dose of Senioritis, it's going to be a rough week here. I am DETERMINED, however, to NOT treat MY stress with carbs.

I have SO much to do... sigh... better get at it. First things first. Clean the house. Blech! LOL Then phone calls I need to make. Then get favorite teacher thank you gifts. Then work. Then household errands. Then grocery store. Then dinner. Then Eagle Scout ceremony. Then BED. I can do this.

I think I can, I think I can, I think I can... wait... I HAVE TO DO THIS!!!!

[smerbear]

Tril you can do it!!!! Great job so far!!!!

[Tril]

Thanks, Smer... sure appreciate your vote of confidence!!!

I got a lot of the cleaning done today, but kinda puttered out after I talked to my mom and found out she won't be here til Saturday. Heck, I can clean today and need to do it all again by then. LOL My upstairs looks FANTASTIC though!! Her room is totally ready. Didn't get the teacher gifts yet... not sure what to give them. They work in a classroom together (it's a learning center in the HS... kids come in and out as they need support and they were a tremendous help to my kid over the last 4 years). I'm thinking I might put together a fresh fruit basket and some dark chocolate. They can share it amongst the teachers or leave it out for the kids if they want. Son came home from school sick, went to work and came home feeling too awful to go to the scout ceremony tonight. I decided I "needed" to stay home with him. Work, grocery store and dinner all got done.

Dinner... I made something up tonight. My son is underweight so he doesn't eat low carb with me. His dad is out of town tonight. So I needed something ds would eat and still feed me. I made what I called Pesto Chicken with Rigatoni.

4 large boneless chix breast, cut into large chunks
1 large white onion, chopped
EVOO
black pepper

Cook this in a pan until the chicken is done and the onion is opaque. Then, stir in...

1 jar Pesto
extra EVOO if needed (I used about 1 TBS extra for the whole thing)

At this point I took a bowl out for my dinner and sprinkled it with fresh grated parmesan cheese.

For "other people" cook one pound rigatoni, drain and stir into the chix mixture. Top with more ground black pepper and shredded parmesan cheese.

This made an indecent amount of food. LOL I figure I can pick out the chix for my lunch tomorrow. I had my chix with a salad of red lettuce, one boiled chopped egg and Greek dressing (0 carb!) I don't know how many carbs this had but it couldn't be much. The whole jar of pesto had 5 grams. I probably ate a tenth of that at the most. The onion added some, but I had "room" in my veggies for the day.

Now I'm drinking a bottle of water and getting ready to make a cup of tea. Tomorrow should be a bit calmer. If it doesn't thunderstorm I plan to get out for a walk in the morning.

Later!
Tril

[Tril]

Smer... you inspired me to post my picture as my avatar. I like seeing yours so much!

[Tril]

Hey... I'm an "established member"!!! Woo hoo!!! Now maybe I can post links?!?!?