Clutterbunny before....

[clutterbunny]

Last summer, July-ish. Most likely around 250....I was horrified at the lump of..butt...that appears to be creeping down my leg. EW!

[Strawberryblonde]

Looks like some party!!

You know probably the first thing people ever notice about you is your fabulous smile not your butt You look so happy in your pics.

Em

[smerbear]

You are too funny clutterbunny! Just think how great it will be to see all of our after pics. I can't wait. It is such a transformation.

[clutterbunny]

Awww... thank you strawberry! * blush *

[curvgirldawn]

You do have a gorgeous smile clutterbunny!!! I have to tell you though people always used to say what a great smile I had and such a pretty face but now after having lost about 50 lbs I never hear it anymore. Very odd. I like to think they are noticing the whole package as atractive now not just my face! But it is kind of weird not to hear it anymore!!

[clutterbunny]

Thank you!

I HATE being told "you have such a pretty face", it's almost like they're trying to console me or something...or leaving out "but the rest of you is hideous". *shrug*

I have serious self-esteem issues, I'm told. My counselor once told me I had the lowest self-esteem of anyone he'd ever seen. I have alot of friends who are pushing me to have gastric bypass surgery, which he also suggested. When I tell them I want to try to lose it on my own, they actually ARGUE with me about it!

I work with one of my friends (who is also very heavy and supposedly trying to lose with the "low fat" thing) and in the last week, she brought cheesecake, donuts, and cookies. Then does this "Oh, I'm so sorry! I forgot about your diet". Kinda getting the feeling she's trying to sabotage me, which I know is paranoid and horrible, but she NEVER does that stuff...

WOW, got seriously off-track. I'm sorry. Just having a day, I guess. I cheated alot over the last few days and none of it was satisfying at all, which makes me really angry with myself because I just kept doing it!

*sigh*

[maro]

it's almost like they're trying to console me or something...or leaving out "but the rest of you is hideous". *shrug*

I have serious self-esteem issues, I'm told. My counselor once told me I had the lowest self-esteem of anyone he'd ever seen.

i am just like tht ... i am house rat ... i hate going out with frds

[clutterbunny]

Meeeee too.

I hate being looked at. Always have. Makes me feel like people are staring/laughing at me. Side effect of being heavy all my life, I guess, and hearing fat jokes constantly (from family...my grandmother was brutal sometimes).

So I completely understand maro!

[artinformation]

I love that picture. You look so happy and you look like you are having an awesome time. I am also sick of hearing "You have such a pretty face" You would look so good if you lost weight etc. etc. My family is the worst. Especailly some members that can't keep their mouth shut everytime they see me. Don't they think I know all of this? I am not blind and I have a mirror. I can see what I look like now and imagine how I would look like when I lose weight. The worst comments are when you re-gain your weight after losing it on some diet. I can't wait to loss my weight and one bonus would be to not here this stuff anymore

[maro]

yeah totally this would be a gift of losing weight not to listen to all this

oh ... ialso thik ppl look at me and laugh ... make fun of me

[clutterbunny]

My grandmother used to call us (me and the twin) "well fed" and make "jokes" to people about how we were almost as tall as we were round...

[tracyred]

oi, this is awful, people - here i am reading your stories, and it's a year ago!! how are you all doing??

(i feel llike people are staring at me and laughing too, but i grew up extremely poor and poor-looking - now i still have to tell myself that laughing people are not laughing at ME!!! siiigh.....

anyways, how are you doing??????????

tracy